This was in my journal from 2 years ago:

My stupid fucking boyfriend lied and tried to hide his texts from some slut he was seeing. UGGGGGGGGGGH! Now I need to find somewhere new to live..  I’ll post more about it later.. It’s such a long story and my head is spinning.  I need some whiskey.

To top it off I’ve had this feeling of complete loneliness lately. I don’t know what to say about it. It makes me feel like cutting myself. I know it’s bad. I know it’s wrong. sigh…. Why can I never meet a nice guy? One that buys me things on my birthday, sends me flowers (black), whispers sweet nothings into my ears :* … A girl can dream can’t she?

It’s funny how stuff can change over time.  Back then I thought my world was crumbling.  Now I am so relieved and happy that things turned out the way they did.  I dodged a bullet.

I suck at using the web and tech things in general.  I have an iphone but pretty much all I can do on it is send text messages.  I wish I had friends that were tech-savvy and knew a thing or two they could show me.  I’d spice up everything on the site to make it look nice and pretty.   Or maybe at the very least get some people to read this blog.  How do people even start reading blogs?  What do you do?  I suck at life.  People besides crazy ex-boyfriends.  For some reason I think the internet makes me safe.  It’s a weird uncomfortable feeling.