This was in my journal from 2 years ago:

My stupid fucking boyfriend lied and tried to hide his texts from some slut he was seeing. UGGGGGGGGGGH! Now I need to find somewhere new to live..  I’ll post more about it later.. It’s such a long story and my head is spinning.  I need some whiskey.

To top it off I’ve had this feeling of complete loneliness lately. I don’t know what to say about it. It makes me feel like cutting myself. I know it’s bad. I know it’s wrong. sigh…. Why can I never meet a nice guy? One that buys me things on my birthday, sends me flowers (black), whispers sweet nothings into my ears :* … A girl can dream can’t she?

It’s funny how stuff can change over time.  Back then I thought my world was crumbling.  Now I am so relieved and happy that things turned out the way they did.  I dodged a bullet.