maybe i should go out less?  drink less? i’d really like to quit my job…. today is a no-capitalization day.  that’s right.  that means no capitals at all.

last night at the club this 43yr old guy asked me for my number.  he was kinda cute so i gave it to him.  i don’t know why…. age really isn’t THAT big a of a deal.. oops, i broke today’s rule. sorry!!

so i got this thing to try and take my mind off my kevin.

It’s not working.

Maybe I should setup a tattoo apt. or buy something expensive. I don’t know what to do. Why does this always happen to me? Sometimes I feel like I’ll never meet a guy that I like? Why am I putting this stuff on here??

hmmm. I wish it wasn’t so lonely here. I hate this city. Everyone knows everyone and there is nothing to do.